One of the Best Apologies of My Life

My Sunday night went from blah to lazy to Whoa! In seconds! Here I was just sitting on my bed finishing up some English homework and all of a sudden I got a text message from an old friend apologizing about the past. It was one of the best apologies I have ever gotten. It brought me to tears, honestly. I was shocked for about 45 minutes still in disbelief. I read it about 15 times, and each time, it was like, wow, this is amazing. I accepted his apology, and I hope that things will be better. Here I am, giving another second chance, and I really hope that this is going to be worth it. I really hope. Because I cannot stand to lose another friend right now. I know this will be worth it. I hope this is another new thing to another new year. I'm going to make this post short tonight, because I don't really have anything else to say. I'm very happy right now. =) 

C.A.L.I.F.O.R.N.I.A Makes Me Happy!

 

What do you see? I shall describe to you in pure detail. I see the sun setting beneath the horizon in California. I bet the breeze is so warm, you could sit outside all night with a cup of tea. The palm trees sway with every little gust. You could look out your balcony and watch the streetlights turn from red to green to yellow to red. Watch your friends walk the streets to the nearest nightclub to have fun. I would jump into my convertible and drive to the beach. What would you do? Would you take off your flip-flops and let your toes sink into the wet sand? Or would you risk it and just take all your clothes off and go for a dip? This is what I would do. I would proudly sit on the beach, plug in my headphones and listen to a song about California, which is exactly what I'm doing right now. I would pick up a sand-dollar and smile at it. The picture at the right. What do you see? When I spent two weeks in California, I woke up to sunshine and it was already 75 degrees out. Beautiful huh? Taking drives up and down California. From San Francisco to L.A. Any road would pretty much lead you to a beach or two. Another city that I can describe in a thousand words is San Francisco. Spending a day there was absolutely amazing. There might not be as many palm trees, but you know what? It's just as amazing as L.A, maybe better. (Except for the earthquakes haha).  If I never get the chance to live here, I know California will be waiting for me to visit. I belong in Washington, and this is where I stay. I believe that this would make an awesome 

 

 road trip one day. During the summer when it's hot. You have you, your best friend, your car, and the music. Just drive. I would love the feeling of jumping on I-5 South and just keep going. No one can stop you. You leave the drama behind you. Maybe it would be cool for some of you, to take a picture that inspires you and describe it as if you lived there. It's all about the imagination. God made this for you to use. 
C.A.L.I.F.O.R.N.I.A. makes this girl happy =).

You Realize That You're not Trying Hard Enough

      My ex best friend was trying to contact me recently. What for? I have no idea. Why does she even try? I don't bother to take the time to read the text message and/or voice mail. The first text she sent me was "Why do you hate me?" I don't hate you. I hate what you did to me. I don't understand people like this? Why do you think me and you aren't friends? Why do you think I went my own way? To be away from you, to be away from a rude person who ruined everything. She is not trying hard enough and she can't try any harder because I will not be friends with you ever. 

        Well done with my venting. Have you ever had one of those experiences? Where you're just tired of someone? I'm moving on. I'm never looking back. I'm not going to bring people back from the past who hurt me. I like to get up every morning knowing that this day is going to be a good day and nothing is going to ruin that. There is something I always wanted to say and it says, "SCREW YOU," yay, I said it! And if you're reading this, I hope you know that if you ever contact me again, you will never hear back, so stop trying. Thank you! 
     As of now, I love my life. I love the person that I have become. There is something that you should never forget. Love yourself and don't let anyone take you down.  Today is January 19, 2011, and as of this day, I'm letting no one take me down. I hope you like the "new Megan." My heart as been put back together and stronger than ever, and it would take a lot for it to break.  It's 2011 and it's time to be mature and have fun! 
      

Second Chances Don't Always Work

I just had a learning experience not too long ago. When I thought I invited another friend in to my life, I didn't know that i would end so fast. I didn't realize what I put myself into and how it would end up. When I thought the friendship was going to be better, it ended up being worse. Looks like I had my first learning experience of the year! I will definitely learn from this one. I mean, I can give second chances, but I have to be careful who I give one to. I wrote a very nice, mature, goodbye letter to this person, and I hope it's for the best. I want this person to know, that this is a very good thing, and that there will be other things in the future in which will be more important or whatnot. I'm giving some advice to some of my best friends and I'm sure you guys know what I'm about to say. Don't give people second chances unless you know for sure it's going to work, otherwise you're going to get a door slammed in your face. As of now, I can really look forward to new things without thinking of looking back. 

I will not look back, I'm faced forward. I am on a new path.

From Hanging in Parking Lots To Now....

I used to hang out with the best people, until all we did was hang in parking lots and do absolutely nothing. Until I was getting way too much crap from certain people. Until they quit putting effort into friendships.  I was finally done. I was done with how they were treating me, how they thought I was stupid, how I drove, how I did certain things. When I think about all of the good times that we all had, I miss it. I miss how we actually got together and did stuff. I lost a best friend recently. She was an amazing person. Until. She changed. I couldn't believe that she blew me off and making excuses. I finally cut it off. I couldn't handle that anymore. I was putting effort into a friendship that was not going anywhere. I was wasting my time. 
Here I am now. I put myself in school, I'm studying, and I'm doing all that I can. I loved all of my friends, but some of them didn't love me back. That's okay. Because I am a strong person, I could care less about the ex friends. I miss a lot of memories back then, but now, I ask myself, was I wasting my time? Was I wasting my own gas to just go to a parking lot for no reason? The answers to those questions, yes. Yes, I was wasting my time. I could have been doing other things besides those, creative things. 

Now...I am a more mature person, I make better choices, I made new friends, I feel so good about myself. I want to thank all of my friends who made me really think of who my real friends are, and to think about what I want for the future. This is dedicated to the friends who made me realize that there are better and creative things to do besides standing in parking lots doing nothing. Thank you =) 

My Life is Back, Thinking About the Future Much?

I have enjoyed having my life back. I got some friends back, and I've also gained new friends as I took my first steps on SPSCC's campus. I've came across some weird people, but you know what? I am a weird person, we all are weird in a way, so I shouldn't say that. I feel really good about my self right now, knowing I'm in the right place. I missed the feeling of having my homework done, it's a great feeling. 
What matters to me, is that I proved my parents wrong. I was going through a phase in which I didn't know what I was going to do about my college education. And they thought I wasn't going go through with it. Well, I jumped on my rear end, and got myself ready for it. I am now a college girl. I'm proud of the effort I put in, and I'm still fighting to be a better person each and everyday.  I always picture myself in the future. Who I would be? Who would you be? I try not to freak myself out by not thinking about that question a lot.

I catch myself thinking about the future way too much. I can dream, yes, but I know certain things won't come true, and that's okay. A couple of days ago, I was walking through Target and I came across a wall accessory that says "Follow the path your dreams take you." I instantly put it in my basket. Sometimes I don't know if there's a path drawn out for you, but maybe there is. Did God draw it out for you? Who knows. Who knows until I reach my dreams.

My First Day Back...Into Life...The Daily Routine

Today was a great day! I had my first day at SPSCC. I'm a college girl now! Just a couple year's ago, I was just in high school. Time really does fly, doesn't it. Of course the first day, I had homework, it was pretty easy. I have the easiest math class ever! I like it, it's so much better than that crappy pre calculus class I had my senior year! As of right now, I think my daily routines will be so much better. They've been pretty annoying lately. Getting up around 1 pm doesn't cut it for me. 7:30-ish is so much better, and I can always take naps! Right now, I'm sitting in bed drinking a cup of tea. It feels so good to relax and I have one of those Febreze Candles burning, smells so good. I'm not sure if I want to sleep just yet, a little too early. 

 If some of my ex friends knew me now, I'm a totally different person, and they should have known me better. Today, I met some pretty excellent people, and I'm glad to have met them! Oh! And another thing, is that I get to see my best friend more at school, I love having to see people that I haven't seen in such a long time!