Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Plans Shot To Hell?

What do you do when you think you've been used? What goes through your head? Is it that feeling of your heart being crushed. Knowing that all your feelings were a lie? Knowing that all you have been fighting for has been thrown against the wall and shattered? What do you do? What do you do when you know you're going to be miserable for the next few months? You have your friends and family by your side. What happens when some people don't care and they throw a "told you so" in your face? You love this guy so much after everything you guys have been through, and now he decides to decrease contact with you? What do you think that means? Is there something happening? Should you be worried, should you be scared? Should you just shrug it off your shoulders and say whatever?
I think I've been used. A boy that I have loved for so long now has been shot to hell. He decides to cut contact. And I have no idea what to do. I feel crushed, I feel that all my feelings were a lie and all that. Long distance sucks, and when you fight for it, you fight. I think I have been fighting for too long and maybe it's time to let go. There's that part of me that's saying you shouldn't. Don't let go just yet, maybe he didn't use you. I don't know the true facts, but this is how I feel.  I hope to not be miserable. I don't deserve to be miserable. I deserve to be happy and enjoy life. There are parts of life that I do enjoy, but love; it's something that needs time and I don't know. I love him a lot, but I don't think he feels the same anymore. I'll add  to this later.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry Meg :( I'm in the same boat and I know it hurts so bad!! We seriously need a girls' day soon.