Friday, December 31, 2010

2010, What Was Your Best Memory?

2010 is coming to an end. 2011 has so much to offer us, making resolutions and staying with them, gaining new friends, new loves, all those sort of things. I made my list of resolutions, I have very many. 1.) Eh, take shopping down a notch, 2.) Wear more purple, 3.) Find a better job, 4.) Make new friends. 
I only have 4 things? I literally thought I had more. Well, four is okay, I hope I follow through with all of those things. Some huge things have happened here in 2010 for me. For example, I graduated high school. That's huge for me, I remember being in kindergarten for crying out loud. Going to California for the first time, seeing those palm trees sway in the breeze, it was so amazing. And another huge thing was moving out. I love my family, my parents everyone. I'm so proud of the young adult I've become. I'm very thankful for the ways I was raised, I couldn't thank my parents more for that. Yeah, there were fights about what's right and what's wrong, but I listened, and here I am, doing great out in the world. And I got my first ticket this year. How wonderful. What a huge wake-up call it was for me. SLOW DOWN, says my dad. And indeed I did. I'm about to go celebrate with my best friend and say goodbye to 2010 and welcome 2011. As for all you guys out there, be safe! There are so many drunks out there on the road. Have a great New Year party! Later!!!

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Is It a Sign Or a Coincidence?

Last night, I had a dream that I went down to Cali to visit my ex, it was very weird, because I don't know what I put myself into and it was awkward. I really don't know how to describe it, and earlier today I went to the gym, and I kid you not, I saw someone that looked just like him. Oh well, is it a sign or a coincidence? Who knows. Anyway, I went to the community college today to pick up my parking permit, I am all set for college. This is a huge step for me, I'm finally keeping myself busy, and doing it wisely. This is also huge for me because who knows who could come along, new friends, boys! Ha. Ha. Also career choices, I really want to go into Auto Tech. I love cars to death, especially 'Stangs! Ha. So we'll see where that lies. Tomorrow is going to be an adventure. Hanging with a great friend of mine =).  It's almost New Years, any thoughts to resolutions? Like I said, I'm still making them as I go. Follow the signs, maybe there will be an interesting destination. 

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I Bought A Purple Shirt. I Don't Like Purple, But I'm Gonna Pull it Off!

Yes, yesterday I believe it was, I used my gift cards to do some shopping. I can't wear purple, but I realized that there is a new year around the corner, so why not try something new. I picked out a purple top, it's very cute. One problem: I don't like the color purple. I can't wear it because I can't pull it off. Well hello NEW YEAR, I am going to wear purple. I am going to pull it off! I don't care what people say. Also today, I did some more shopping and I bought stuff for school, which is next Monday! I am so excited! I'm all packed, got my books, and just gotta get my parking permit.  My theme for this blog post is basically telling you that if there's a color you can't wear or you don't like, go buy that color and just wear it, maybe it'll change your mind. I gotta cut this short for tonight, talk to ya lata! 

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Loving the Holiday Season

Long time no read! I know, I'm very sorry. Well, it's the holidays! I hope you all had a great Christmas. I know I did. I love my family very much, and spending time with them during the holidays is so much fun and I'm very glad to have them in my life. I got some good things for Christmas, and I'm very happy to have gotten what I got. Does that make sense? I don't think it did, but oh well. My parents got a stalking for the first time in ages, they very well deserve it =). I feel really good giving.  The feeling of giving is so much better than "getting." It makes you feels so good as a person. I got some awesome gift cards, and I'm very excited to do some more shopping. Like I have enough clothes, right? But that does not stop me one bit. I sure do love this Santa hat! I feel some more inspiration hitting, so I'll be catching up with my blogs. I'm very tired, time to lay down and watch some TV and fall asleep. Merry Christmas, again!


Sunday, December 19, 2010


I finished my book! I love that feeling, makes you feel so successful. I can not wait to put my nose into another one. It really helps me a lot, and to figure out who I am. I don't need to stand in parking lots all night, I don't need to be standing around wasting my time, I can come home, relax and read. There is nothing wrong with that. Another thing I found out about reading books that interest me, is that they also inspire me. I think about the world and realize that it's a huge world, and there are so many interesting things to do. I'm thinking about getting into fashion. Designing your own clothes, maybe selling them in stores? That does not sound bad, in fact, that sounds like fun. My brain is full of inspiration right now. It feels so good! 
 I look at this picture I posted. Could I do stuff like that? It's very possible. Who knows, who knows what the future will bring you. All you got to do, is dream. And some day, those dreams could come true. Just dream on...inspirations.

If You Don't Get an Apology, They Do Not Care Enough...

I wake up today, trying to figure out what I was going to plan. I had absolutely nothing. I did have the option to going to a birthday party, but I couldn't trust myself with people there that I do not like. So, I just decided to stay home for the day. It was actually a really nice relaxing day, since a few days before my days have been full. So, let's just say today was the day of rest. I read some more of my book, I'm almost finished =). I have no finished a book since my junior year of high school. So my point of this post today, is that, if someone you care about hurt you, and you don't get an apology from them, they do not care enough. Are certain people in your life worth it? This is a question that has been running through my head for so many months, and I finally know who exactly matters to me. 
 And now that my question is answered, I now have a clear road on where I want to go. With nothing to get in my way, I will not run into any bumpy roads to delay me. I'm very thankful for everything I have right now. The best family, and the best friends. They watch me crash and burn, but they always help me find my way back on the road. So, if you're waiting for an apology from someone who hurt you badly and always promised you things, don't wait, just move on, and they can continue messing up other relationships. As of right now, I do not let things like this get in my way. I push them out of my way and continue my adventure. It's all I can do. Maybe it's all you can do. 

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Sometimes Plans Get Flushed Down the Toilet

What a wonderful day it has been. Had coffee with a friend that I haven't seen in forever. Took my car to the car wash. After that, a lot of drama went down. Now, drama, I thought was in the past, until, this had to happen. You know when you make plans with another friend, and they totally "forget" about you. You text them, but they ignore you, and you find out that they're out and about with other people. When they look at their phone constantly. Well, as of right now, I do not care. I'm putting this behind me and moving forward, like I have said in the past blogs. It's not worth my time, when I'm getting ditched like this. Oh well. I just tell myself to forget about it, move on, there are better people out there who want to be around you and have fun. All that matters, is hanging around the people who love you. If they don't want you around, then you're wasting your time. I'm hoping tomorrow goes well. Well, it's off to sleep for now. Goodnight. 

Friday, December 17, 2010

New Pictures, New Memories, New Everything.

I'm sitting here in my warm bedroom, looking around. I replaced a lot of my old pictures with new inspirational pictures. It's such a wonderful change. As this year comes to an end, I'll cherish the old memories and lock them up. As the new year comes around the corner, I'll make sure I bring my camera and take pictures of new moments, new memories to be remembered, just new everything. Today, I hung out with a special friend of mine, it was so nice to see her, I'm so glad I have few close friends to this day, it means so much to know I have people here that love me and encourage me to follow my dreams. Tomorrow, I'll be having coffee with another friend, and to pick up a worthless paycheck that I'm going to cash for the first time. That's how stupid my job is. I work so little, that I barely make any money, but I do know how to save, and I splurge every once in a while or two. This is the time to start thinking about 2011's New Year Resolution. Have you thought about that yet? There are so many new goals and activities I'd like to approach, I might list one or two here and there. It's time to wind down and relax. Bye Bye =)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Being Productive

To be productive. That was the theme of the day. I felt very successful. I hung out with a friend whom I haven't seen in forever. It was very fun for me. Also, we stopped into a couple bookstores and I found myself getting some books that I'm interested in. Yes, I'm starting to read again. I think reading will also help me keep my mind on positive things. After I was done visiting with friends and such, I went home and ate some dinner and relaxed. To keep my day productive, I took a trip to the gym to run off some stress still leeched to my head. I come home, take a hot shower, clean up the kitchen, then finish off with a book and a cup of peppermint tea. I'm starting to fill up my schedule, since I barely work nowadays. I feel some friendships blooming back. And tomorrow, I'm having a late lunch with a special friend who's going through some of the same things as me. I'm so excited to see her, it's been such a long time since we've met up last. I'm hoping that tomorrow will be just as wonderful as today was. Later =) 

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

From Losing Fake Friends, I Know Who My True Friends Are.

So, I had the experience of knowing who my fake friends are and who my true friends are. This is one reason why I started this blog. To get out my feelings and just to vent. But I'm done venting. I'm starting a new happy life. To the fake friends, you were there for me, but at the same time you didn't care. To the true friends, thank you so much for being there, to help me through the drama, to help me through the pain of losing friends, and just wanting my company. I really appreciate it. And also to my family. I love my family, they're by my side through everything. This is the new beginning.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

I Believe So

The start of a new day. Woke up at 2:30pm, which is ridiculous. Sleeping in like this is horrible, I only have few hours of daylight, it's like I live in Alaska or something. I believe that I need a new change. I believe so. Something to help me sleep earlier and wake up earlier, and to actually have a full day. A full day would be awesome! And one reason why I can't sleep is because it's so cold in my bedroom, so today, I went out and bought me a space heater. I will probably sleep so much better and hopefully wake up at a decent time. Have a little breakfast, watch a little TV, go to the gym and work out. I would love to have a day like that. And you know what? Tomorrow is going to be that day, and also, I'm seeing one of my friends whom I haven't seen for a month. A month! A cup of peppermint tea is calling my name. See you later =) 

Thinking of the Beginning

So, I got out today, drove around, walked around the mall, and of course the mall is the same. There are rude people and there are nice people. When I was sick, I thought of that as a cocoon. A new person has came out of me and starting to figure out what life is about. As I was out and about, I started to shop for new things. I decided to redecorate my bedroom. Took down old pictures, and put new ones up. New pictures of nature, such as: branches, birds, and puppies. It's very nice to see new things in here. Is this the beginning? Or is this just a preview? I also looked at pictures of my old friendships and past trips. I cried and laughed, and as I put them away, I smiled. Smiled, knowing that everything happens for a reason and that there are new adventures waiting for me. Although it was a typical rainy December Washington day, it seemed like everything was different. Well, we'll see what tomorrow brings me. I will describe it to you, see you later. =)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Where Should I Go?

What kind of places are calling my name? Palm trees and warm breezes? Frequent horns of taxis around the city? Douglas firs in every direction you look. This is the place that I reside. The place that my family and friends reside along with me. But there is a voice inside me saying, maybe I should go look for a new adventure. What kind of place do I choose? Palm trees, warm breezes, sunshine year round? I'm thinking so. But another part of me wants to keep me here. And maybe I do want to stay here. There could be new adventures in other places, but I will never know, Washington is a pretty big place, from the tip of the Space Needle to the crop fields in Eastern Washington. There is bound to be something new. California is not a perfect place, but that's the place where every girl wants to go. To make their dreams come true, to meet new friends, to find new places to shop. To just make a new person out of themselves. That's what I feel. Seattle could be that same way, right? Except for the rain 75% of the year and there are no palm trees along the streets. I do have a choice on where to go. My mind is playing tug-o-war. California or Washington, maybe Oregon? Who knows. When I make up my mind, I'll be sure to let you know.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

The Past and the Beginning

I had friends that I hung out with everyday. Until day by day, they all started drifting away. I look at pictures of this past summer and realize we had a wonderful friendship with full of surprises and secrets. Well now, I only have a few people to look up to. My best friends, my true friends. My family. I miss the past, I miss hanging out with everyone, but we all just stopped talking, started to get treated like crap by them. Well, now, all I have is the beginning. The past is behind me, and all I have to do is look ahead. There will be new beginnings, new secrets,a new life. Another huge thing of the past that stuck, was having the most amazing boyfriend. He was everything to me. But he had to leave too, and I have to move on. Like all my friends and family said, "Megan, there's more out there for you. Don't sulk and be sad, live." Right now, I'm starting to make a list of new things I want to do in the new year. One, I'd like to learn to skateboard, starting getting into activities, clubs. I just need to make myself happy.